Ok, here's a question...

if you had a problem with someone, wouldn't you want to talk to that person about your problem with them and see if you two could work it out?

its just a simple question. One that I ask out of slight irritation.

but its bygones. i don't really care right now.

anyhoo, about the movie...

i quite enjoyed it, seeing that i wanted to cry i was so scared. And now that i kinda look back on it, i feel like i was kinda a fool being so scared. but still, i want to see it again when it comes out on dvd.

i asked steve to the movie so i would feel awkward with the couples (as i didn't know who else was going to be there. I had called ryan, but he was at work. As was Dikki.) Then, as i was leaving my house to pick up steve, i noticed my cousins (who aren't really my cousins) leaving their house as well. It seems that they were going to go see The Village too!! So they decided to see it with me!!

Which is why i did not sit with my friends that i had made the plans with. I wanted to sit with my cousins who i almost never see even though they live right next door.

After the movie, I took steve home right away since he's taking care of his sick dog, and he was worried about her. Which i thought was rather endearing.

but, anyhoo... yah. i've got plans tonight, so...

i guess i'm done now.

k bye.

So... I'm bored, as usual. I was at yahoo and decided to check my horoscope, and for some reason, this one made me feel better.

Daily Singles:Family get-togethers are a drag, yes, but they're also a way to get your mind off your own self for a few hours. When you're surrounded by your family, you feel like you're doing all right.

Don't ask me why, it just did.

I talked to my friend Greg last night! While we were talking, it hit me that he's going into grade 11 soon. GRADE 11!! I met him while he was in Grade 9!! That's insane!! We sorta made plans to hang out when Karen and Ruffy (his friend) get back from their respective trips.

OOH!! Today I received a post card from Karen while she was in HK! she picked it up at the airport there. It's dated July 15. So, i was happy to get it. I am happy!!

so yah. its cool. i like hanging out with ppl. I think i might enjoy hanging out with Steve and his friends more right now. *shrugs* i dunno. whatev.

Can't wait til Karen gets back! Can't wait to hang out with the Soon to be Grade 11s!!

I just can't wait!

but i'm gonna have to. oh well. life's a bitch and then you die.

kk, done now!!

You know who i like having as a friend?

Steve.

He's a nice guy when he's not being mean. Well, he's not 'mean' per se, he just teases. A lot. but still, he invites me to stuff that he doesn't have to. like to go to the movies, or watch a video. And he's really funny.

Giant Ants.

yup. that's right. giant ants. but anyway, i digress...  (though, i think you can only digress if you have a point. oh well. i like that word.)

I just felt like expressing my gratitude towards Steve, and how nice he's being to me. We can make fun of stuff together, which is cool.

And he makes me laugh. Seriously. Like, he makes me laugh a lot, so my abs hurt, and i can't breathe. but that's only sometimes. (usually at their family reunions which i attend. Even though i'm not family. and sometimes i feel awkward at. *sigh* the things i do for my friends.) especially about cake. don't ask. and if you do, ask steve when i'm not there. i don't know if my abs can take it.

anyhoo. that's me being all... sappy kinda. weird. yes, most definately weird.

Steve and Antony are cool ppl who don't mind my company. And tolerate my company even though they don't have too. and make me laugh so that i can't breathe.
which, come to think of it, is probably not a good thing, but still, very funny. (even though i don't think i should think its funny that i can't breathe, i do. cuz they think it's funny and start laughing which makes me laugh even more. ah, the twisted cycle of laughter.)

hmmmm... anything else? ummmmmmmmmmmm......

this term, don't expect to see a lot of me. i'm gonna be hella busy with school. i have a saturday morning class, so.. yah...

i would be sappy some more, but i just can't. i hurt my brain.

so, done now. bye.

Hmmm... this is kinda interesting. I read some horoscopes today (just now actually) and its a bit confusing. I read two conflicting things.


Aries Mar 21 - Apr 20
Sat July 24, 2004
You're very dynamic and upbeat today, so no wonder people are flocking around you like wasps around the jam Pot. If you fancy someone and you haven't done anything about it up till now, you could decide to test the waters and see if they feel the same way about you. You might even pluck up the courage to ask them out, which requires courage but at least you'll know if you're wasting your time.
 
And Then

Aries:It may become apparent that what was so light and active yesterday is running into a few roadblocks today, dear Aries. It may seem as if you are suddenly heading straight into a brick wall with some of the projects you have been working on. Suddenly there is a more reserved tone to things and precious momentum may have been lost. Use this time to back off and reassess the wisdom of the direction you were going.
 
But the first one I read today was 

 
ARIES (March 21-April 19): Aggravating circumstances may block your career path. Quell the urge to fight back as this will soon pass. Others may approach you with proposals tainted by self-interest.
 
Yah... so... I'm upbeat but I'm stuck.... ok...

****

On a different and better note, last night I saw "The Bourne Supremecy" with Steve, Antony, Cait and one of Cait's friends, Kylie - not sure if that's right.. (This is a different Cait. I am not talking about myself in third person. This is Steve's friend Cait.)

I am eternally grateful to them. We had fun. I think me and Antony kinda bothered Steve a bit with our comments, but we tried to whisper. It was a loud movie anyway.
Our seats kinda sucked ass. second row. As in, Second row from the screen. yup. craning our necks to see up to the screen, and not even really being able to see the whole screen from our seats. at one point in the movie I just sorta scooted down so that my head was almost on the seat of the chair while my legs were flung over the seats in front of us. Yup, got kinda tired of that after a while.

After the movie, Steve Antony and I went to Timmy Ho's for some coffee (mmmmm... double double).  i also got a milk on the side. We stayed there til like... what? 3 am? we got there about... 1ish? i think? We just talked and talked and talked. about everything. spiders, ants (red, black, and red-black. The ants in Australia sound soooo scary!!), movies  about drugs, Choice, stuff like that. it was fun. I can't wait til the next time!

hmmm... what else?

i worked yesterday. not too bad. Spent some time with Alex and Justin. They're sooooo much fun!

after work, i came home, changed my shirt to a tank top, then played my TMNT game with my sis. (For those of you who do not understand the abbreviation TMNT, shame on you. shame.) Anyway, we played that a couple times, then i watched tv. or i tried to. i took a nap instead.

had dinner at the white spot (which karen and I will be dining at upon her return), had a bellini (or however you spell it. i don't care.)

shopped with my mom for a white blazer (she's been trying to find one all summer).

went to rogers for a movie. no luck.

came home. read. started to watch School of Rock, when Lo and Behold! My phone started to ring! It was my Saviours!! Steve and Antony to the rescue!!! Smugly would have been there, but he had to work early next morning. psh, i say. psh.

and then it continues to when i started this entry.

so yesterday didn't suck as much as i thought it would  have.

I'm am glad that Steve remembered phoning me (yes, he forgot like i knew he would. apparently next time i'm supposed to phone him. which is ok with me.)

anyhoo...

yah...

ok, done now.

bye.

blah blah blah...

there's just one thing that i want to/have to say.

I love Alex sooooooooooo much. he has to be one of the nicest ppl in the world. and i love Justin too. he's so sweet. they're both sooooooooooo great! and i love working with them!

Can't Wait Til PRIDE!!!

(Thanks Alex, tho you're never gonna read this!!)

From the site Encyclopedia Mythica http://www.pantheon.org/miscellaneous/origin_days.html
 
Origin of day names
 

The names of the days are in some cases derived from Teutonic deities or, such as in Romance languages, from Roman deities. The early Romans, around the first century, used Saturday as the first day of the week. As the worshipping of the Sun increased, the Sun's day (Sunday) advanced from position of the second day to the first day of the week (and saturday became the seventh day).

Sunday: The name comes from the Latin dies solis, meaning "sun's day": the name of a pagan Roman holiday. It is also called Dominica (Latin), the Day of God. The Romance languages, languages derived from the ancient Latin language (such as French, Spanish, and Italian), retain the root.
French: dimanche; Italian: domenica; Spanish: domingo German: Sonntag; Dutch: zondag. [both: 'sun-day']

Monday: The name comes from the Anglo-Saxon monandaeg, "the moon's day". This second day was sacred to the goddess of the moon.
French: lundi; ; Italian: lunedi. Spanish: lunes. [from Luna, "Moon"]German: Montag; Dutch: maandag. [both: 'moon-day']

Tuesday: This day was named after the Norse god Tyr. The Romans named this day after their war-god Mars: dies Martis.
French: mardi; Italian: martedi; Spanish: martes. The Germans call Dienstag (meaning "Assembly Day"), in The Netherlands it is known as dinsdag, in Danmark as tirsdag and in Sweden tisdag.

Wednesday: The day named to honor Wodan (Odin).The Romans called it dies Mercurii, after their god Mercury.
French: mercredi; Italian: mercoledi; Spanish: miércoles. German: Mittwoch; Dutch: woensdag.

Thursday: The day named after the Norse god Thor. In the Norse languages this day is called Torsdag.The Romans named this day dies Jovis ("Jove's Day"), after Jove or Jupiter, their most important god.
French: jeudi; Italian: giovedi; Spanish: jueves. German: Donnerstag; Dutch: donderdag.

Friday: The day in honor of the Norse goddess Frigg. In Old High German this day was called frigedag. To the Romans this day was sacred to the goddess Venus, and was known as dies veneris.
French: vendredi; Italian: venerdi; Spanish: viernes. German: Freitag ; Dutch: vrijdag.

Saturday: This day was called dies Saturni, "Saturn's Day", by the ancient Romans in honor of Saturn. In Anglo-Saxon: sater daeg.
French: samedi; Italian: sabato; Spanish: sábádo. German: Samstag; Dutch: zaterdag. Swedish: Lördag; and in Danish and Norse: Lørdag ("washing day").
 
 
This was just for fun. If you don't care, then don't read.  This isn't for your entertainment. It's for mine, and I'll put whatever I want on it when I feel like when I feel like it. (hopefully, that sentence made some sense). so, if you don't like it, then go somewhere else and stop wasting my comments.
 
 

 Danu, Anu, or Dana, is the ancient Mother Goddess of Ireland. The Welsh Don is her equivalent. She is the Goddess worshipped by the sidhe race the Tuatha de Dannan. Some believe that the Moon Goddess Diana, the Faery Queen of Witcheries, derived from the Great Danu.

You know what I miss??


Jem and the Holograms!

They kicked SO much ASS back in the day! Kids nowadays don't appreciate real music! Jem and the Holograms are probably the reason why i love music so much (ok, not the only reason, but still).

C'mon. It was a cartoon show that was kinda like a musical!! That kicked ASS!! I wish i could watch it again. it was soooooooo cool.

*sigh* i miss the good old days.

Jem and the Holograms I Believe in Happy Endings

Tell me I'm crazy, maybe I know
But I believe in happy endings
I know it's crazy, still even so
I believe in happy endings

Just as I believe in you my friend
I believe things work out in the end
Sure as there's a moon and stars above
I believe in happy endings, I believe in love

Just as I believe in you my friend
I believe things work out in the end
Sure as there's a moon and stars above
I believe in happy endings, I believe in love

That's all i have to say for now.

k bye!

Um... for those of you who read this in time...

i won't be able to make it to adam tonight. However, I have a valid reason.

My Aunt and Cousin (my real cousin) are coming down to visit for a few days. So I'll be hangin out with Mimi and Kimi for the next few days.

so... yah, sorry. I know that i was one of the ones who suggested going to adam, and was all gung ho for it and all... but, sorry. Family comes first.

and its not like i won't see you guys at all. but still, my family is coming down today, well, tonight rather, and i'd like to hang with them.

so unless they're really tired or whatever, i don't think i'll be doing anything tonight with you guys.

still, i don't love you any less.

on another note, me ryan and chris went on a date last night. they were funny.

chris drank tea, and ryan had a pink drink. it was fun.

so...

so, today at work with Alex and Emily, something fun happened (and no, we did not have a threesome).

Alex was making a drink or something, and I was getting tuna melts from out of the toaster oven, so i said "Alex, I'm right behind you so..."

and Emily says "don't turn around."

So then we bust out the lyrics, Emily and I, singing Ace of Base's "Don't Turn Around".

Coming home from school, i put in the Ace of Base cd i brought along and skip to that song. Now, there is one line in that song that i just cannot understand at all.

So, being the pathetic loser that i am, i go and google for the damn lyrics.

So here it is, guys and gals...

The lyrics to "Don't Turn Around" by Ace of Base

(Spoken) I will survive without you...

Don't tell me that you wanna leave...
Whoa whoa whoa whoa
Whoa whoa whoa whoa

If you wanna leave
I won't beg you to stay
And if you gotta go, darling
Maybe it's better that way
I'm gonna be strong
I'm gonna do fine
Don't worry about this heart of mine

(Spoken) Walk out that door
See if I care
Go on and go, but

Don't turn around
'Cause you're gonna see my heart breaking
Don't turn around
I don't want you seeing me cry
Just walk away
It's tearing me apart that you're leaving
I'm letting you go
But I won't let you know...
I won't let you know.
Whoa whoa whoa whoa
Whoa whoa whoa whoa

I won't miss your arms around me
Holding me tight
(Holding me tight)
And if you ever think about me
Just know that I'll be alright
(I'll be alright)
I'm gonna be strong
I'm gonna do fine
Don't worry about this heart of mine

(Spoken) I will survive
I'll make it through
I'll even learn to live without you

Don't turn around
'Cause you're gonna see my heart breaking
Don't turn around
I don't want you seeing me cry
Just walk away
It's tearing me apart that you're leaving
I'm letting you go
But I won't let you know...

I wish I could scream out loud
That I love you,
I wish I could say to you
Don't go........

(Spoken) As he walks away
He feels the pain getting strong
People in your life
They don't know what's going on
Too proud to turn around
He's gone

Don't turn around
'Cause you're gonna see my heart breaking
Don't turn around
I don't want you seeing me cry
Just walk away
It's tearing me apart that you're leaving
I'm letting you go,

Baby don't turn around
Whoa whoa whoa whoa
Don't turn around
Whoa whoa whoa whoa
Just walk away
Whoa whoa whoa whoa
It's tearing me apart that you're leaving
I'm letting you go

Don't turn around
Whoa whoa whoa whoa
Don't turn around
Whoa whoa whoa whoa
Just walk away
Whoa whoa whoa whoa

That underlined line is the line that was driving fuckin insane cuz i didn't know what she was saying. now i know. now i'm happy.

the end.

Wow, look at me go...

I've been posting a lot lately, but what else am i supposed to do?

apparently, not much.

Opened Alegria today with Joy (The Bestest Boss in the whole fuckin' universe!!!). I made muffins; Chocolate Chip banana & Strawberry banana.

they were pretty good. Drew and Christina seemed to like them.

Speaking of them, they are soooooooooooo great! I LUV YOU GUYS!!! They didn't go to white spot because they wanted to hang out in steveston, then we had a date. not just the three of us though, Ry and Dikki were there too. (wow, Dikki, you're kinda a slut. First you go out with Em and Jamie, then you go out with us! You Player!! >.< jk, i luv you too...)
we were supposed to go to the Cannery cafe (ry, that stupid loser, didn't even know where it was!) but then someone wanted fish and chips, so we went to Pajo's. No discount for us (thanks a lot, dikki *koff* asshole *koff*) its ok though, i got half a free drink outta it. actually, it was dikki's but he was kind enough to share.

so that was fun. i like going on dates with Drewtina. its fun. They're fun.

um.... then after that, i came home briefly to pick up some books to drop them off at the library for my mom. then i came home and went on the compie to wait for karen.

talked to mikey for a bit...

Then There She Was!! My Balance! My Best Friend! KAREN!!!!

so we talked for a bit, made a few tentative plans for the future, then i had dinner (mmmmmmmmmmm... sushi. i ordered too much. couldn't eat all of it. oh well.)

i like food.

so yah, that was my day. there might be a little Adam adventure on friday, for whoever's interested. not for sure tho, its just an idea. i think we've been away from Adam long enough. I've been listening to the cd i burned lately. (See Reuby? Getting drunk at Adam isn't all that bad, is it?)

And I think i've cleared some stuff up with regards to Canada day. (and those of you to whom i spoke with at our date would be wrong. I'm quite sure of it.) but whatever.

kk...

uh... see? i think i just need to talk to karen everyday so i'm not such an anti-social bitch. she makes everything better. well, not everything, but, ya know... stuff and stuff. its not like she can create world peace or anything. she's just from the future. that's all.

so yah, during my date with those 4 ppl, i felt really good. happy. happy around my friends, which prolly hasn't happened since Karen left (i'm pathetic, i know, but i don't care anymore.)

and anyway, august isn't too far away..

yah...

um... k, that's all.

i'm done.

(ps, Reuben, I think you and I need to talk about Canada Day....)

hmmm...

well, i feel much better than i did last night. actually, after talking to people and crying, i felt better.

i think that when i want to cry, i will, and i won't try and stop it.

but still, i feel much better.

its not a sad and pathetic feeling...

its sort of like anger, but not really. its like, the heat of anger is running in my blood, and i feel like i wanna do something, anything... mean? bad? but that's not it either.
its not an evil feeling, though i feel as though it could be.

i have no idea what i'm talking about. its hard to describe what i'm feeling.

Kyle, I think you are right. I think i need to get drunk. but, maybe not tonight. but, perhaps soon? i'm not sure about that either.

and i've decided to be less selfish.

i know, i don't think i can do it either, but i'm gonna try.

there was something else i was going to do...

Oh yah! my new years resolution!! Be less afraid. embrace my fears! stuff like that.

probably not going to happen either, but still...

***

have you ever thought something, and believed something, just because someone said it? and not just like, one time or anything, but lots of times? so you find yourself believing this thing, even though, deep down, you know that you don't, not truly?

just a thought...

ps...

i'm sorry. you shouldn't have to read all this crap. i apologize.

NOTICE!!

this is a notice for all that read my blog (which are probably not many, but anyways).

my posts for the next month will most likely be pretty boring.

i almost feel like crying. pathetic isn't it? she's been gone, what? a day? and already I'm sad. I don't think about it for most of the day. but when i do... this happens. I get all pathetic. stupid, isn't it?

****

i'm glad you're having a good time, Karen. Have lots of fun, take lots of pictures!

Christina, we should hang out. I'm going to miss you so much when you leave. we should have another date sometime soon. Drew can come too if he wants.

***

i probably won't go out a lot with people. I've seem to be in a slight anti-social mood right now.

***

you know what's kinda funny? my mom is sorta encouraging me to find a boyfriend. its funny in my head, at least, but we all know that my mind is forever screwed up.

but i'm tired of waiting. i'm tired of semi-searching (since we all know that I'm lazy and do a half-ass job anyway). i'm tired of fantasizing about 'the one'. i'm tired of all of it.

i don't think i'm giving up, i'm just... something. not quite sure. maybe its just a mood i'm in. it doesn't really feel like giving up, just... accepting? but even that doesn't feel like the right word. i don't know.

it just is.

maybe i just feel like this cuz i'm sad. and feel like crying.

i hate crying.

maybe i should do it more...


love? i'm not sure anymore...

Canada Day

watched the parade. it was good. did lots of cheering/screaming. voice was hoarse afterwards (duh).
went to work. it was hella busy. started 1/2 an hour before i was scheduled. that's all good. more money for me.
got off work 1/2 an hour late. still, ok.
went to drew's bbq. got promptly drunk. all good.

Day After Canada Day

worked in the am. minor hangover. not too bad, but still, getting drunk was not the best idea.
saw karen. said good bye. didn't think about it.
went home. watched a little tv. went back to work to pick up pay cheque. went to bank. cheque was a little screwy. went to karen's to drop off her cheque. heared she got to HK ok. happy. went home for 2 seconds to pick up Mooks. went to Ironwood. got junk food and movies. went home, ate dinner, watched movies.
since both movies were short, we went back out to get another one. too tired to watch all of it. went to sleep.

Day After That (Saturday)

worked am (once again). not hungover which was good. worked. went home. watched tv for a bit. went online. Talked to Karen for a bit (yay! So happy!!). talked to ry. ate dinner and watched movie that was left from last night. went online again. talked to ry some more. went to sleep.

Today

woke up in late am (thank god). ate pastry that Mookie made. it was yummy. watched Major Payne. got ready for work. went to work in afternoonish. worked. came home. parents were there.

...

the end.

(sorry for this long, boring post. but, kinda tired, and not really... passionate. but there's nothing else to do. i should take back all the movies we rented, but i'm really lazy. i'll do it later. maybe i'll find something to eat... maybe.... but probably not. bored. nothing to do.)

on another note, my dad just said "Hellz No".

i thought it was funny. my parents are weird, but i like them.